She says she wants me to write how I feel when I get overcome. I don't think she understands how hard it is to deal with me when I get overcome though. It is crippling. It is hard to function or even breathe. Harder to put to words. I don't like to feel like this, … Continue reading An Unwanted Double Shot
To anyone that knew the two of us, we could not have been any more opposite. As kids, she played with dolls and loved dressing up and wearing makeup. I swung from trees and played with balls in the dirt. As teenagers, she caused absolutely no family drama and I created and caused enough for … Continue reading “The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places.” —Ernest Hemingway
That entire evening is a blur to me. My last detailed memory was us sitting in the waiting room. We were listening to the girl behind us dry heave into the barf bag they graciously provided her. Some children on the other side of the room arguing over a toy fire truck. A man came … Continue reading So, we will just roll on with this too. Like we do.
I just read a great article in the Wall Street Journal about NASCAR’s declining popularity and revenue. I've been a fan since Dale Jr's rookie Cup season. Not by coincidence. Since that time the sport's popularity has declined steadily. After Matt Kenseth cruised around in circles in 2003 and won a title after winning one … Continue reading My Two Cents On NASCAR
Sally Bradshaw lives in the small North Florida county that I grew up in. It’s an agricultural community, where many still meet for coffee in the early mornings, attend church on the regular, make casseroles when there is a death nearby, and actually attend family reunions. So it’s no surprise that a lot of the … Continue reading A Few Good Men(forgot what they stood for)
It's been seventeen days since the Pulse shooting and I still do not know what to say about it. I have much to say. I have many thoughts. I have many opinions. I have much anger, rage, bitterness, and sadness. Most people have a vision of "us" as a very passive, accepting, non-judging, easy-going lot. … Continue reading My Pulse Is Still Racing
The last six months of my life have been nothing if not chaotic. I ended a 13 ½ year relationship, began living alone for the first time in the same amount of time, realized some harsh truths about myself and my own shortcomings regarding relationships and codependency, and spent a lot of time sitting in … Continue reading I’ve Done Some Things Right. Some.
My counselor suggested at one of our first meetings that I keep a journal. My first thought was, “You, lady, are insane. Hell no. That’s asking for trouble” because frankly my private thoughts are enough to give the devil himself pause at times. I don’t really have a good explanation for it, but generally my … Continue reading Can SOMEONE Else Do The Bending? For Once.
Breakups are never easy. Not for either party. Regardless of who “caused” it. Regardless of who “initiated” it. Regardless of whose “fault” it is. Nobody spends years with a partner and leaves without some great memories. No matter how bad things were toward the end, there was a bond at some point. There was something … Continue reading It’s Not Kevlar, But Kryptonite
I have always believed that certain events in your life will change the person that you are, regardless of what stage of life you're in when they occur. Having sex for the first time, falling in love the first time, having your heart broken, breaking someone's heart, getting married, getting divorced, finding your soul mate … Continue reading The Coolest Shit That’s Ever Happened To Me